Conversations with Conscience.

...of pisang goreng seposen and keropok lekor

i'm not sure how much i shd share abt my recent developments .a gazillion things happened at the time i was in KL and i really learnt a lot of wonderful things.most significantly about myself and my somewhat role in this world.che wah.long story.
as some ppl are aware,i am currently on trial at this sch in KL.wad the sch is about u ppl hv a rough idea abt it already right.

i had been almost losing my mind being a bit more free than any of my other frens who seem really occupied with sch.u see,there was some communication breakdown and i was supposed to be back in KL much earlier as i had to talk with the principal and see if i hv decided to continue(act'ly i'm not quite sure yet what I'll be telling her but don't worry).takpe lah,sabar aje.

but then again there is obviously a lot of hikmah as to why God actually had let me stay here this long.besides helping my mom teach her pre sch students frm 9am to 5pm every weekday(which is btw quite draining in more ways than one) and also followed my mom to meet her business friends cos she wants me to learn what business networking is all about(which was really cool),i got to talk to a lot of people.
altho sometimes i have seemingly 'no-brainer'(is dat how u use dis word) conversations with ppl esp my gfs,it was all worth it.learnt a lot of things.God sure works in odd ways.Merci mon Dieu.
but no,wait,let's talk a lil bit abt KL first now shall we? since apparently some ppl marah me for being Missing In Action for months and for some,years and suddenly "nak lari KL" so now I tell you lah okay.kesian u all,sorry tau.

firstly in KL i seemingly present myself in quite a serious manner.I actually am a serious person in the flesh in the first place but if i'm in a not-so-good mood esp abt being rather free at home right now,den i can get overly-cheerful and its pretty creepy & klakar seram.loony,yes.i get spasmic.haha, takde la i don't have spasms.

so anyway,ppl in KL kept asking if i am an eldest child.like i think 4 or 5 or 6 ppl?others asked whether i can drive and when i gasped they said "but aren't u above 18??"(yes,malaysians DO speak english--more fluent than us,i might add)
but i'm not even that tall,i still look the same.this got me worried for a while.don't know why.i mean a friend of mine schooling there (a s'porean too) wld love to be thought of as matured,but...oh well.(cos she's small sized n giggles alot causing ppl to not take her seriously sometimes maybe?)maybe i was worried dat they'll give me lotsa responsibilities & leadership roles and i was not in the mood to seriously commit yet as i was still on trial.but they gave me those leadership roles anyway so yea.ape seh they all, i so could read their minds .we'll go back to this later if i dont get sleepy.

let's see...travelling has really really opened up my eyes in more ways than i expected.seriously,u ppl shd get out of this place once in a while and really go out to observe and learn.u know like how Nabi Muhammad said something like timba lah ilmu hingga ke negeri Cina.yes,this is something like that.go out and explore the diff cultures of ppl.jalan-jalan melihat kebesaran Tuhan i heard someone saying once.like how its amazing how God created certain ethnics to be/act/live a certain way,why humans need different languages but God Himself doesnt need any cos...He's God?anyway yea malaysian ppl are good ppl.i really really like them.of cos there also got the tak betul ones but,generally,if u open up ur eyes and see,u'll love dem more dan um...singaporeans.i'm not just saying this for the sake of saying just to be funny or what okay.
Malaysians are obviously more laid back but I think it is pretty obvious tt they are generally much happier ppl than singaporeans.You'll observe this too if you had to stay there for 2 months .Sometimes I really wonder and ponder what are these Singaporeans chasing in their lives and whether what they work for really makes them happy or merely temporarily contented.We are really missing the bigger picture in a lot of things,u guys.

i fell quite sick there till i lost weight n became a bit bony bcos of the culture shock involved but that's just natural for me since my body not so lasak since young.small matter.but bcos of that i think now,InsyaAllah not only my body but my mind,heart and spirit also more lasak.sigh, mcm2 ujian n nikmat happn to me in KL so if i dont meningkat in any way i dont know what to say also.

i cant quite state down the experiences n lessons i learnt cos too many and i dont want this entry to be so long i myself now sakit mata.how shall i summarise it then?

over dere I've learnt to broaden(like reeeally broaden) my perspectives on a lot of things esp about people,life,happiness and God.

Regarding myself,I learnt that it is important not to try too hard to have ur own stand but just let it happen naturally.hmm,take your own time to grow perhaps?(--for lack of better word)if not you'll end up having an identity crisis until you're like 30 as a result of feeling left out in the first place.*beams at bedah belacan*

This sounds odd and u guys might think i'm starting to speak like E.T,but...bertindaklah dengan apa yg telah disuntik ke dalam hati mu.i learnt that when u belief in certain values,you must stick to those things,hold on tight to ur principles.if you think something is not right,just don't do it okay,for the love of mankind.don't go with the flow and don't rush to find yourselves.take time to think and reflect cos it makes u a more...ummm wholesome(?)person.and be very very forgiving even,say,with your parents and siblings and umm,pets.not easy,but they're really important.
haiya,dis sounds like average pieces of advice, but i don't know how else to phrase this,but i had to learn these things the hard,painful way being in a foreign country and i had to take care of myself in more ways than i expected.(thks Mak,campak nuraini,satu2nya anak dara mak ,kat KL.i know ur intentions and tt u mean well.sengaja kaann..? :))
but,people i have no intentions of sounding like i'm above everyone else or anything.just wished all of u could come with me and live there urslef in KL den u'll see what i see.sighs dreamily

to those of u who get me,Alhamdulillah,your rezki,and to others,if i sound like i'm going E.T phone hooome,never mind u'll get me soon.

gosh hv i made any sense at all in the above entry? see,this is why i sometimes don't like blogging cos we'd tend to subconsciously want to create impressive impressions like how i see in a lot of ppl's blogs.again,I'm not quite sure how long I will be commiting to this blogging thingy.ya la all this blogging & friendster like popularity contest liddat.haha offended?good.
i mean seriously,i'm not even sure how to put a tagboard in this plc.i dont think i will..i'm kind of an 'IT-saggy' and proud of it.

down with social standards.don't ask me where the link is to that.(anyway i suddenly miss Mama Melon and her cheesiness.ahh,we had fun sitting together in class in sec 4 dint we now?whine-stein.and bedah belacan aka bahriah, ingat tak i shiok sendiri with the 4E6 Current Affairs Forum?u helped me with the poster thingy.that was actually fun and fruitful.at least to me. )

take care of yourselves okay ppl.God bless :)

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