Conversations with Conscience.

i have a thought.

i am currently pondering .why do girls mature at a super quick rate after a heart break?or do people generally mature faster after being heartbroken.....?

of course when i say heartbroken, it doesn't neccessarily/only mean in association to someone whom u have/had romantic feelings for.like for myself,I've been frequently heartbroken due to my disappoinment in people whom i love/loved...be it family,friends,or teachers.yes,it shatters me to crumbs.and i have to pick up the minute serpihans and gather the pieces together to see the bigger picture.to make long story short,it takes a bad situation to show the true colours of someone indeed aye.(like duh,right.)

u see,firstly, i have a confession.i have a guilty indulgence...and that is....jeng jeng jeng...i blog-hop.(you:ewww?) i know,i know,but hey, at least i blog- hoppity- boing mostly to my own girlfriends' blogs...and i'm blessed that my girlfriends make sense.hahas.so reading their thoughts are...nice.for lack of better word.and because i've been reading my girlfriends' thoughts that i'm pondering about this;about ppl suddenly finding themselves at a super quick rate after suffering frm a certain loss...or absence.
and btw,it's interesting that each of us are going through different....um...phases.and stages.and paces.wait,i mean,pace.at different pace.
(and thank God u girls don't diss each other on your blogs anymore like some of u used to "subtly" do.no offense tho,ladies.heh heh.thank God the catty days are oveR. :P )

ehem,back to the topic.
apparently it is so true now innit?

it obviously shows that there is a very need for us to go through pain,be it emotional or psychological,for us to really grasp the concept of life.by firstly,learning how to read people...("habbluminannas",a term I learnt...means relationship with people...which has to be co-existent with firstly habbluminallah,which means relationship with God of course.)
so therefore pain is very neccessary.not that we should go around deliberately looking for pain just because of this.

my dad ever said to me once, "Memang perlu kita lalui liku-liku hidup untuk memahami tentang kewujudan kita." No, actually I kinda rephrased that but that was the idea that he was tryna bring across.
"Kadang-kadang kita diberi perasaan gembira,kadang2 sedih,lepas tu gembira balik pasal tu kan cara Dia hiburkan kita. Kita kene betul-betul faham konsep hiburan (dari Dia) tu macm mana untuk menghayati." wo de papa rawks.

And for an added bonus,I learnt this in KL:
"Hari-hari gembira lebih banyak Dia beri daripada hari-hari sedih.Pasal Dia tahu & faham kita tak mampu nak banyak bersedih-sedih walaupun kedua-duanya adalah hiburan dariNya."
so u see now....? i sure see it.we should really focus on the bigger picture now shoudn't we, no matter how hard it is.

in my opinion though,we can regret,but only our mistakes.But I doubt we should regret our experiences now should we?Everything happens for a reason doesn't it,because He....is Creative.Because it is usually the bad experiences that we discover the truth;about ourselves,about people,about life.Despite the fact that reality bites and gnaws on our heart like gnawing on daging belum empuk and then spits it back out unaprreciatively(ouch), there needs to be sadness before we know what happiness means ,now, dost thou not agree?

Anyway, there's this really really good Malaysian magazine,Muslim Milenia,which has articles which are presented in a somewhat really...open-minded way.And global.And practical.And of course appealing.Not extreme or biased.And it usually has teenagers submitting articles and my O my,aren't these teenagers philosophical.Padahal most of them who submit are 17-year-olds.like,no fair.and btw,it only costs RM7 per issue.for a read that's pretty fulfilling and eye-opening,i must say that's reaaally cheap.

So I read this well-phrased article about "OUR FREEDOM,OUR RESPONSIBILITY---A GIFT FROM GOD." I'll give it 4 out of 5 stars.che wah.But it's written by an adult,not a teen tho.
So then, I'll share you snippets of it.

But first,inhale...and.....

Indulge.....with an open mind,and an open heart.

oooh,let's put it in red.

"We were given the most important kind of freedom; to believe in Him or not.After that, He takes control.

We asked God for the freedom of choice and He granted it to us.But because He is just and fair,He allowed the opposition(Evil) to present its own version of "freedom".It was part of the deal to allow us to choose between the two styles of freedom.

To entice the weak at heart,Evil presents its laws that defy God's laws "in the name of freedom." But like all of Evil's promises,its freedom is no more than an illusion.

Whoever makes the wrong choice lose their freedom and even worse than that, they lose themselves.(In my own words,they get wasted wasted wasted.)

Therefore, any path other than The Right Way is nothing more than a fake freedom and false happiness."

Dah abis.best kan?And thats only a tiny chunk.Now let's analyse this a bit....

Before we ask why can't things be simpler,we must ponder why He lets us have room for doubt in the first place.Cuz He never forces anyone of us to believe,now did He.And,uh, for anyone who intends to un-conform,do it right and do it smart okay....Don't get wasted yourself.(whoever eat chilli feel hot-hot.)

will be back with more updates.last words.......patience is THE answer.Cuz I learnt the hard way that Inspiration and Understanding will hit those who are patient and emotionally courageous.not that I am.I mean,I hope I am.(now that's a prayer in itself.)

::Reality is NOT according to the perceiver::

::BisikanKalbuku:: 6:46 pm