17th Sept : performance at an annual Islamic Carnival where the carnival blacked out and we ended up performing indoors

20th Sept: some Phuket tv talkshow crew came down to film us perform and interview our producer.the host was pretty.

23rd Sept: performance at Phuket Street Cultural Revitalization at Old Phuket Town. this was the most happening event. its some kind of street fest-cum-arts festival kinda thing. besst.

24th Sept: all cultural representatives had to parade through the whole of Old Phuket Town.phenomenal.roadblocks everywhere.i guess it was a way to culturally revitalize Phuket Street..??haha whateverr.waste of time,really,but there was indeed muchhh to see.i laughed to myself a lot on that day while parading.

25th Sept: performance at a hight-tea event at Phuket Merlin Hotel. had to answer demanding qns from this english-speaking thai lady who is apparently 'a traditionalist Muslim' who wasn't pleased to see 'us Muslim girls in make-up and costumes displaying ourselves on stage'. when i mnged to answer her, she said,"wow, i never knew all that." now this is what it's all abt.

26th Sept: performance at Krabi, another part of Thailand. all cultural represntatives from ALL parts of Thai came to perform. Mawaddah represented Phuket. something miraculous happened on this particular night. i'll tell u when i meet u. mehehe. anyway, aft the show we slept over at Krabi's Vice-Governor's house. she served us Nasi Kerabu the nxt morning and we sang acapella for her in appreciation. she almost cried at our lyrics.

27th Sept: went to one of my Thai friend's house and slept over for one night. her mom served us a feast. makanan Thai sedap sampai blh pengsan. and this friend of mine,who's 16, took me out on her scooter and we cruised the streets in the evening.hahaha.after that we struggled to run away frm any traffic police in sight. (cos she's underaged to ride the scooter, duh.)

so yeah.came back to Kedah, just in time for the last part of the course,then went back to the Academy at KL and we were then released for our project work.

i'm sorry i sound so passive but i'm really in a daze and i cant believe i'm here.in singapore.

mixed feelings.

no offense to anyone, but in a certain way, i wasn't ready to come back home despite being homesick for some time. i already had the momentum going on over there and suddenly it's being broken with me coming back to s'pore at an unexpected date. the people there told me to go hm ages ago cos the semester break began ages ago, but i procrastinated cos i knew when i come back,it'll be another whole new environment tt i have to deal with.

look at how weak the human psychology is. changes in environment aje dah stress.

my trip sounds all fun but it's not easy having to cope on your own, going here and there.

when i was in Thailand it actually hit me of the world that i left behind,the old me i left behind.

and i feel extremely thankful.

i'm so glad i have so many things to do & deal with that i don't have time to over-think,over-feel & over-analyse.be it over-analysing situations or over-analysing feelings, or, people. i hate how i used to do that a lot in the past. haha. what a loser. ok, stop.

feeling inexpressive cos i'm not feeling well.

i'll try not to make my next entry so passive.

and to all taggers, khob khun for tagging..! (khob khun maknanye t.kasih in thai.) how sweet of all of u. masih ingat saya rupenye.i opened up my blogsite at KLIA aft such a long time and was delighted to see all of ur tags.keep them taggin waggin, people.u're a nice bunch.

btw my grandma shrieked over the phone just now upon hearing that i'm back.

laterr.i wanna find something s'porean to do.~

::yes there is pain, but surprisingly Regret has never crossed my mind.alhamdulillah.::